Grief

Six years have passed since we lost Davin.  I still miss him every day.  The tears are not every day, but often enough that I try to hide them.  People ask me if it gets any easier.  No, it doesn’t get easier, you just learn to deal with it better.   I never knew that your heart could really hurt and that ache never goes away.

Someone I know posted the above picture on Facebook not long after Davin passed and I thought, “how appropriate.” It depicts how so many of us feel after the loss of a child … a hole that will never be filled.

Last month we went to the movie theater to see the final episode of The Chosen for Season 3, (I will talk about my love for this show later).  I can’t begin to tell you how this was just gut wrenching for me.  It had me in tears and then when we were in the vehicle I just lost it.  The show went back to the time of King David and quoted Psalms 77.  This was a verse that went over and over in my mind as I was searching everything I could find about grieving.  This Psalm affected me so much, as I was angry with God, I was hurt and confused.  I have included this short video below (about 4 minutes).  I have watched this so many times.

I don’t have any earth shattering recommendations for people who are grieving, but I can tell them how important it is to have faith, read the Bible, and surround yourself with people who love you.  They don’t have to say anything, they can’t make it better, but speaking from experience, it helps so much when they still talk to you about your loved one.